Sunday, November 14, 2004
It's that time of the year again...
or that time of the season. whatever. exams are coming, and i'm sure everyone feels it. only problem is, this is the period of time when i need my friends the most. i feel guilty for feeling that way because it means i tear them away from their books and notes, but that doesn't make the feeling any better. this is the time where i need people by my side (not literally), when i need company.
unfortunately, this is also the time when most people either can't afford the time to spend, or simply won't. it's a selfish thought to make people spend time with me (or someone else, for that matter) when they have so much to do. were it me, i'd like to be able to say that i'd give my time to others (and i do try), but i guess i'm the same too. still, it doesn't make it any better to feel that way. in fact, makes me feel worse.
i guess i'm kinda weak in that sense. i need people around me, with me, in spirit, in heart, in thoughts. and david tao's song (the title) really portrays how it feels to be lonely. (but i don't feel
exactly the same way he says it in the song - i'm not in love or just broke up or anything)
i need to get the strength, draw it from God. i know He's there. i don't blame him for letting me feel this way, it's probably part of His plan. but at times like this it just feels so..blank. guess that's the only word i can use that fits in. the perils of a limited vocabulary.
loneliness doesn't come from being alone; it comes from feeling alone.
la soledad viene de la sensación sola...
simply jon.pondered @ 5:16 pm
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