Destiny's Claim

Friday, January 28, 2005

No, i'm not illustrating the effects of love, for those of you who know what i mean and are reading the title too deep...

It's just how i feel at the moment. Heavy. All 64kg of me =) ok bad pun, but i don't care.

Seriously, something lies on my heart...and i can't seem to place it. It wouldn't be so bad should i know what it is but can't do anything about it. But i don't even know what it is. Perhaps God knows i can't deal with it right now and doesn't want me to know for that reason. Perhaps it's not something that i can deal with at all. Perhaps i just need to let go. But how do i let go if i don't know what it is?

I suppose this is probably one of the few times that not-so-positive emotions are on my blog...i wouldn't call them negative just yet. Maybe sometime later in the semester they might turn that way should this persist. I hope not.

Sometimes a longing creates a heavy heart. Sometimes a lack of it. More often that not, it's the former. Sometimes it just needs a nudge in the right direction. (and if any of you corny people nudge me on msn just because i put this in my blog, you'll get your just desserts)

My brain is lagging...my reflexes are dulled...feeling the traditional NUS student's "sian-ness"...my heart is heavy...

simply jon.pondered @ 9:57 am

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